I often refer to the last 3 years of our lives as a family, and how difficult they have been. Worth it?
Yes. I can honestly answer that with a yes. Only because of where I am in relationship not only with my husband, but more important where I am at with Jesus.
At the beginning of the 3 years though, I would crumble at any tension, or negative change in our lives. I was queen of throwing a pity party. It was as if I had an emergency party kit that in a moment’s notice of bad news, I could throw together a gathering like no other.
But 3 years later, and having received some news recently that is life changing for many in our family, I see that I have learned. Sunday night it all hit me and I sat in my driveway in my car and cried. I cried the kind of tears that don’t stop no matter how hard you try to make them. BUT this time instead of trying to decide what I was going to wear to my own pity party, I cried out to God.
All that God has taught me through Lysa TerKeurst when I heard her speak 3 times in the last two years and reading her blog, at that moment, I put her messages into play. Now, not later, I turned a pity party into a praise party.
I began to praise Him in advance for what He is doing and what He is going to do with the circumstances we are facing. I acknowledged that He was not surprised as we were with the news and that He is so much bigger than all of this. And I praised Him for how He will always take what the devil meant for evil and turn to good for His glory. Simply because He says He will.
He is good.
I learned in Renee Swope’s book, A Confident Heart, how to “boss my soul around” and that is exactly what I did the other night. Instead of feeling sorry for myself, I praised the God who never lies. I praised the God who tells me in 2 Chronicles 20 that this battle is not mine. It’s HIS.
Praise the LORD. Praise the LORD, O my soul.
Before I wiped my tears and went into the house, I whispered 2 Chronicles 20:12 to Him…For we have no power to face this vast army that is attacking us. We do not know what to do, but our eyes are upon You.
I do not know what to do, BUT no matter what God, my eyes are upon only You.
Are you there?
Are you feeling overwhelmed with something in your life?
My initial reaction to our news a few weeks ago was pure anger and my words were anything but godly, but when reality hit me Sunday, it was God Who I turned to. It was Him that I acknowledged that even in my anger, I had no clue what to do. He didn’t shake a finger at me and tell me how I blew it and should have sought Him from the get go. Instead, He embraced me in my driveway. He let me know…I’ve got this.
I want to encourage you to trust Him with whatever you are facing today and let Him take over. Let Him show you how He is in so much better control than you could ever pretend to be. And let your pity turn into praise. Because as I learned last January….
“In 2 Chronicles 20:21 it says ‘Give thanks to the LORD, for His love endures forever’. Thanksgiving and praise moves the heart of God which allows the hand of God to move.”~Lysa TerKeurst.
Move His heart today girlfriend and watch what He does next.