All nets set down to follow Jesus

The last few months of my life many changes have happened. Some really good and others that have left me wondering about my future. Left me confused and rather empty.

A season in my life. One that has given sudden empty spots I tried filling with everything. Everything but Jesus.

I know better.

I can lovingly tell a wounded Christian how much they need Jesus.

I have a good action plan ready to hand out to the first Prodigal son or daughter so they can find their way home.

But what I am not good at is applying what I know to my own life when I get bumped off course.

So my season of life became a living hell within my heart. Torn between what I desire and Who I know to wanting to do things my way.

Jesus became a distant relative that I never talk to or gave any time to. Slowly the things of the world seduced my hardened heart with more success than the ridiculous wooing of The Bachelor extending a rose to desperate single women in an exotic setting.

My Bible which I love and treasure stayed closed. I stopped writing and even stayed home from church when I could. I withdrew from the Godly people in my life. The Truth was avoided and clearly my life did not show that I love the Lord with all of my heart, soul and mind.

When I try to fill my heart with what I think it needs it’s like I’m a kid at Christmas standing at the mantel filling my stocking with things from my own wish list. No kid would be excited or happy pulling out what he gave to himself. Emptiness will remain when we try to do things on our own.

So I opened my Bible to page 1,585.

And the heading in Matthew 4 caught my eye…The Calling of the First Disciples.

18 As Jesus was walking beside the Sea of Galilee, he saw two brothers, Simon called Peter and his brother Andrew. They were casting a net into the lake, for they were fishermen.  19 “Come, follow Me,” Jesus said, “and I will make you fishers of men.”                                        20 At once they left their nets and followed Him. 

The one thing that has played over and over again in my mind since reading that, no matter how far I drifted off into the sea of sin, is the two words Matthew wrote…At once.

And then I realized.

Unlike the fishing brothers, I haven’t had my “At Once” moment with Jesus.

The moment that I abandon all for Thee. The moment that I put down my net filled with all my junk and just walk away and follow. Follow Him with nothing in my heart but pure desire for just Jesus. Let go of my wants and follow Him with no hesitation.

I’m there. I’m at the sea-shore with my nets full of me and there He is. 

Walking along the banks of my hurting heart, extending an invitation no matter what I have chosen to do without Him.

Come follow ME Lelia

I can stand gripping my nets giving excuses of why I share the unworthiness John the Baptist had of not being able to even tie His sandals. Or, I can believe that nothing I have done or not done can out sin the grace God has for me and follow Him. 

Letting go today. At Once. Seeking like never before and knowing that if I don’t Satan is going to win me over. Destroy my marriage and even my life. Kill my desire for Jesus and steal all joy that exists only because of my King.

BUT.  The One Who is in me is greater than the one who is in the worldI have a God that already has victory over my enemy, He’s just waiting for me to let go of my nets.

At Once,

Monday I received an e-mail from my friend Jen who is the director of a huge women’s conference only 2 hours from Lincoln. She asked me to come to the conference next week on a scholarship and stay in her room. The conference theme this year is called “He knows my name”.  Only God would know how to pierce a hardened heart.

Check out the COMPEL conference site and if you are close…please join us. Who knows what God has up His holy sleeve, but I want to find out. Click HERE for conference details.

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18 Responses to All nets set down to follow Jesus

  1. MaryLu says:

    Lelia, thank you for re-gifting the Word to us today. I think we often forget the dailyness of living a life with Him. We drift from spiritual things, even mundane things, thinking that “I’ve got this, Lord. Thanks.” But, just like at Christmas, the gifts we give ourselves are not nearly as precious as those thoughtful gifts from a loved one.
    Bless you, my friend.

    • MARYLU!!!!! I miss you girlfriend! Thank you for your encouraging words. I have been such a Prodigal so it is awesome to be home. So true in thinking “I’ve got this”. I know I make Jesus shake His head a lot. Thankful for new mercies.

  2. dawn aldrich says:

    Thank you for your transparency here, Lelia. We all travel this road one time or another…sometimes in circles. I know the Lord has great plans for you. May you savor the moments and listen for Him to call your name.

  3. Katy Flood says:

    Thank you Lelia for sharing with us your past few months. Your voice is loud and people are listening. And…welcome back girlfriend! Love you!

  4. This brought me to tears. So real and raw and beautiful! I got chills at the “Unlike the fishing brothers, I haven’t had my “At Once” moment with Jesus.

    The moment that I abandon all for Thee.”

    So awesome.

  5. alisha1972 says:

    My Dear Friend,
    Your words are always so pure and so true. I love that you let everyone know that your path with god isn’t perfect. I need to know these things. I hope that we will find the time to get together soon. I miss you very much and know that together we can find a way to get on the right path together. LOVE YOU!!!!!

    • Alisha…text me. I miss you too and would love some Alisha time. Let me know when and where and I’ll be there!!! 🙂 Thanks for all of your encouragement., Seeking Him together. 🙂

  6. Karren Reed says:

    Lelia, thank you for always being so transparent!! You once again have touched a deep place in my heart, showing me that He is bigger than anything we bring to Him!!

  7. Marlene says:

    We all get bumped off course from time to time Lelia – but I hate it when it happens! The trick is just getting back on that horse and riding a little farther each time before we get bumped off again. blessings, marlene

  8. Kelly Lake says:

    Thank you, Lelia! I really needed to read this this morning. You have opened up my heart to ponder and think. I’ve been in a similar season and I am amazed at how quickly I can treat Him like that distant relative. Thankful He never lets us go and is always and forever wooing us back to Him!

  9. Michelle Courtney says:

    Thanks for being “real” Lelia! Know that we love you and pray for you!

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