Fixing to Remain

Well so long twenty fourteen. 

What a year. 

A year of God giving and taking away. 

A year in which I learned that I am pre-approved in Christ and that I Want God.

As a writer it was a quiet year. After our son came home from prison in the spring, I took time away from writing and speaking. When I was ready to write again, my laptop and tablet broke. The few times I did write was on my daughters laptop which was difficult to borrow due to her school schedule, so I just stopped. And I think that was what God had planned for me all along. Stop and learn from and about Him. 

Earlier in 2014, I decided to get a tattoo on my wrist as a reminder to stay the course with Christ. I often write on my hand when I want to remember something important and was ready to commit to a permanent reminder. It was months before God let me know my word was to be REMAIN. He chose that word because I don’t remain in Him. I easily get sidetracked and walk away from my True Love and as He tells us in John 15, He will remain in us if we remain in Him. In November I sat for 3 hours in a busy shop waiting for a tattoo that took the artist all of 5 minutes to scrawl into my skin. I loved it and like a newly engaged woman can’t stop looking at her finger, my eyes were constantly drawn to my wrist. 

But here is what I learned very quickly from my eternal one word.

The newness wears off. 

I could return to Justin at Iron Brush every Saturday morning and have him keep adding reminders up to my elbow to help me stay focused, but if my eyes are not fixed on Christ then once the ink dries all I’d be left with is nothing but a sleeve of meaningless words. 

David understood this. Psalm 141:8 But my eyes are fixed on you, O Sovereign LORD

Solomon encouraged us. Proverbs 4:25 Let your eyes look straight ahead, fix your gaze directly before you.

Paul tells us where to look. 2 Corinthians 4:18 So we fix our eyes not on what is seen, but on what is unseen. 

Hebrews 12:2 Let us fix our eyes on Jesus, the author and perfecter of our faith


Bottom line is that where my gaze is fixed is what will consume me and I want it to be Jesus. My tattoo can serve to remind me of my desire to remain in Jesus, but if my eyes are not anchored on Christ then my wrist is just a canvas displaying Justin’s work.  

In all my years of following Jesus Christ, I know from experience that looking away from Him is not worth it. May 2015 be a year of fixed gaze on my Savior so that in Him I will remain. 

Oh, and I’m writing this post from my new iPad. A few days before Christmas I received a delivery from Amazon. I would later find out that 20 of my girlfriends in ministry secretly came together to bless me with a tool to write again along with the sweetest note of encouragement. I still don’t know who was all involved, but their gift made me feel so loved and believed in. I love when Jesus uses us to let others know He sees us and has plans for our lives. 

I’m ready to fix my eyes and remain in Him.

And write because He wants me to. 



If you’re interested in having Lelia join you at your next women’s event, go HERE for her schedule or join her in March. Click on the picture for details. 


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5 Responses to Fixing to Remain

  1. Robin says:

    Thank you for your blog. Happy to see you writing!

  2. I so enjoy seeing God work in and through you Lelia! You are an Oak of Righteousness, a planting of the Lord for the display of His splendor! xo Happy New Year of Abiding. <3

  3. Smiling and rejoicing that you’re back! Think I hear some Arnold Swartzneger here… I’m Back…..

  4. Linda Crow says:

    What a great spiritual application re focus, constancy!

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